Monday, October 17, 2011
No Matter What
I woke up this morning feeling like the weather outside was trying to overtake me. I feel like I'm stuck in a misty fog and I can't see where I am going, and even worse, what I am doing -but I refuse to give up. These emotions of fear and unbelief, despair and confusion, just seem to be swirling about me. I feel like I'm blindfolded. But I say,"NO!" Even if I have to stand in this fog blindly, I refuse to budge in my stand for what I am believing in. My house, for D to get better, be healed and set free, and happy marriage. I may feel like a fool. I may seem stupid in the eyes of the enemy, but who cares anyway?
Psalm 23:5 says, "You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows." I don't care. I say to my future, "My Lord is faithful. I declare and decree His faithfulness and goodness. Blessed be the name of the LORD!"
Psalm 33:4 "For the word of the LORD is right and true; He is faithful in all He does."
I refuse to cave in to the taunting of the enemy's lies that say, "You should give up, because it will never happen." I refuse to bow down to the fear and unbelief that keep trying to interfere with what Poppa God is doing. I may not see with my earthly eyes, physical touch,or emotional feelings that anything is changing, but His word is faithful and true. Deuteronomy 7:9 "Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; He is the faithful God, keeping His covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love Him and keep His commandments."
I speak to the mountain in front of me, and praise my Father God even if I don't see it moving.
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. I WILL BELIEVE. I WILL KEEP TRUSTING. Even if I feel blinded, cold, tired and afraid, I will trust in you, Lord. Even if nothing seems to be getting better, even if my circumstances seem so stubborn. Even if others around me don't have my faith or vision, it's okay. This is not their fight, It's mine. Mine and the Lord's. I will yet praise Him, my God and my King.
I STAND ON THE RUBBLE OF MY ENEMIES. I STAND ON THE PILE OF LIES, FEARS, TEARS, AND BROKENNESS. I stand in my faith, and I am strong and mighty in the Power of my Lord. Exodus 14:14 "The LORD will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.”
One day this fog will lift, and I KNOW I will feel HIS grace and light shining upon my face again. There is a reward for those who diligently seek Him. There is a reward for those who are faithful. The sun is going to come up...I know it. His SON is shining on the horizon of these temporary circumstances. JOY is coming again. Until then I will keep on believing and keep on clinging to His Name and Word.