I was on my knees at the foot of my bed talking to Poppa GOD about what I could do concerning my marriage and the situation.
"Is there anything I can do? Please show me, Lord." The answer came so quickly, so simply. I knew beyond a doubt that I recieved a direct answer. "Have Communion". I heard Him say to my spirit.
I said, "wow, Ok." I have to chuckle about that, but in that moment it clearly was a direction for me to go, so I went and got some italian bread that I happened to have on hand, and I poured some red wine. I got down on my knees in the place where I have met and prayed and cried out my tears to Poppa. To me it's a "Holy" place. Any place that you meet with JESUS regularly is a special place. I opened my Bible and tried to find the scriptures where Jesus had the last supper with His deciples before He was taken to be cruicifed, to be whipped and to be broken for us.
This is that passage:
17 After taking the cup, He gave thanks and said, “Take this and divide it among you. 18 For I tell you I will not drink again from the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes.”
19 And He took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.”
20 In the same way, after the supper He took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.[a]
from Matthew 26:26-29
26 While they were eating, Jesus took bread, and when He had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to His disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”
27 Then He took a cup, and when He had given thanks, He gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you. 28 This is my blood of the[b] covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. 29 I tell you, I will not drink from this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.”
I asked the Lord for the forgiveness of my sins andshort comings, my faults and any areas in which I have been at fault in my life and marriage. I remembered that the stripes that JESUS took upon His back were for my redemption, my healing...OUR HEALING. In MARRIAGE WE'RE "ONE", so on behalf of my husband, I went before Poppa in Worship. I firmly and truly believe that when we recieve communion we are recognizing and honoring what JESUS did for us. His blood, His broken heart and body, His rejection -everything He took upon Himself that day for us. That we can be made whole, be restored, be made new. This pleases Him and honors Him.
I believe one of the stripes was for the brokenhearted. He had a broken heart for us. He knows the tears we cry and the pain that engulfs us.
Psalm 147:3 says "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."
As I took a drink of the wine to my lips, I thanked him for the healing and redemption that is for me and my husband. "I receive ALL the benefits of the cross and resurrection that you did for me and for us, Poppa".
I prayed specifically for the areas where my husband needs healing: depression, anger, hurt, pain, insomnia, etc., and anything that would hinder him from moving forward in all That the Lord has in store for his future. I believe that Poppa considers a marriage covenant as "Holy" and precious, so I put our wedding certificate at my feet and laid my hands upon it as I prayed and said "remember"....
I also took the bread and broke it and thanked Poppa for what He did. That His body was broken and bruised for our iniquities. This was for me and my husband. I cannot tell you how beautiful this moment of worship was to me. His presence was in the room. I felt a great peace settle over me. I have been doing this communion with Poppa for 8 days now. I can say that this time has been very special. Today is the anniversary of when Poppa took me to the heavenlies...to where I saw Him face to face. I remember Him telling me about worship and my husband. He said, "You are ONE, You worship together in spirit and in TRUTH." Those words have stuck with me since, so even though my husband isn't with me, we are still together bound in a covenant before OUR Father in Heaven. I sometimes can feel what he is feeling and sense when something isn't right. During those times, I pray hard for him as wife should do.
We are the BRIDE OF CHRIST. MARRIAGE is a symbol of CHRIST's love for the church. He even instructs for husbands to love their wives like He Himself did. Ephesians 5:25 says,"Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her." This how much He values marriage: His own name is on it.
For those who are struggling in your marriage, I ask that you take the time to get away and have communion with the Lord. If your spouse is willing, do it together. If not, just be open and have a heart to please our LORD. HE is with you. He loves to spend time with you. It pleases Him.