One Of Those Days

Sometimes I just want comfort, because the ache of missing someone is so great. I just don't want to get out of bed, because the thoughts haunt and linger like an old friend, and I wonder if they remember me. Sometimes I just don’t want to fake a smile, because the emotions are just way too close to the surface and it feels like I’m truly at the breaking point of a tear slipping down. No, thank you. I have come this far. So I just want to eat some chocolate, or maybe a comforting gourmet cheese sandwich with soup; but please, please don’t drag me anywhere. I’m just tired, very tired. I know this temporary feeling will pass just like a quick little rain shower. I’m not going backward, I refuse to do that. I’m going forward, if only someone could hold me and not say a word. Written by Jenny Williams, Ruby Wives Copyright 2012. All rights reserved.

My love is like a blanket.

My mind tells me many things, but my heart tells me differently. I just don't trust my mind or heart, because I have just been too hurt. Heaven help me.

This line from a song struck me...

My love is like a blanket

that gets a little bit too warm sometimes

I wanna wrap somebody in it

Who can hold me in his arms

'Cause when it got a little too hot in there

He was always stepping out for air and he froze

Oh he froze....(apologies)

I saw these lyrics and thought, "It's so ironic, because the words seem to fit my life. I seem to love like a blanket. Maybe I love so much I just smother, when all I really want is to love and be loved. So simple, but so difficult for me.